Hilaria Baldwin's Disturbing Confession: Counting Calories in Toothpaste During 20-Year Eating Disorder

Hilaria Baldwin's eating disorder spiraled to the point where she meticulously counted the calories in her toothpaste.

The yoga instructor, currently featured in Fox's unscripted series "Nation's Dumbest," laid bare her 20-year battle during an interview with SiriusXM's Page Six Radio.

“I did all of it. I did anorexia, I did bulimia, I did overeating, I did undereating,” Baldwin stated, revealing the extreme lengths she went to, including a fear of the calorie content in toothpaste.

Baldwin disclosed that her dieting began at age 5, a staggering revelation that highlights the early onset of her struggles.

As she aged, she faced significant challenges in recognizing hunger and fullness. “I look back and I looked fine,” she reflected. “But I thought I was a whale. I just thought there was something broken inside of me.”

The "Dancing With the Stars" alum shared that she undertook substantial efforts to combat her eating disorder before having children, attributing her intense focus on healing to her ADHD.

“I don’t want to live this way; I’m miserable,” she recalled feeling during her darkest moments. “I can’t have good relationships, I can’t have good friendships, I can’t eat out to dinner with people. It’s just so, so, so stressful.”

Determined not to pass on her struggles to her children, Hilaria emphasizes open discussions about food with them.

“What I try to do with my kids is empower them, talk about strength, talk about, ‘How does the food make you feel?’” she explained.

While she may not endorse unhealthy snacks like Cheetos, she refrains from shaming her children for their choices.

In fact, Hilaria expressed excitement about sharing a video of herself and her youngest daughter indulging in two pints of Häagen-Dazs ice cream late at night—an act that would have previously terrified her.

The "Baldwins" star first addressed her eating disorder in her 2016 memoir, "The Living Clearly Method," and elaborated on her healing journey in a 2018 Instagram post.

“I have found that being healthy is about not focusing on weight and rather on how I feel, how strong I am, and how healthy I am,” she wrote. “Weight and how you look are side effects. Not the main focus. When I started focusing on health, my obsession with weight went away.”

“Nation’s Dumbest” airs Wednesdays at 9 p.m. ET on Fox.